Loving You Regardless

 

People say there’s that one person 

you’d always love and want regardless. 

You are my one person,

but I don’t think I’d always love

and want you regardless. 

I am different.

While I like the idea of you, 

I am unable to tolerate this reality with you. 

That of everything to do and all words to say, 

of all actions to perform, 

you prefer to wait or give us away.

I think that you are sane and 

fit enough to decide what you 

want and it’s selfish of you to do 

ward rounds before coming back to us. 

I know for you, 

it’s you taking your time, 

it’s you being sure, 

it’s you trying to know and make sure this works.

For me, it translates as weighing options, 

as you finding something and someone better, 

as you not wanting us enough.

That’s a selfish type of love

and it’s no way in line of 

what I have for you or intend for us. 

So, it’s useless to say I love just you 

and I’d love just you until the end of my life. 

It means that I am saying to myself 

“I’d rather give myself to this person

who is uncertain instead of finding 

joy in a good space” 

that’s an unfair place to put myself.

Because yes, really 

I could die for you if need be. 

I could turn hills for you, 

move the mountains and 

grow through time with you, 

but if you wouldn’t do the same, 

it’s a waste of my pure intentions 

and a delay of my time, 

a detour of the sincerity 

I look to experience and 

I never want to give you the pleasure 

or honor of ripping me 

off the ability to love someone 

so purely because I am stuck on you. 

Because whether or not I like it, 

You’d find someone for you. 

I also would hate to keep myself 

in bound because of your inability 

to journey with me.

So, yes I love you. 

But I wouldn’t always do! 

I won’t feel no guilt for the 

day that I stop to, 

because even you know, 

the grace I extend to you, 

is the type that only God could- 

I love you that much. 

But sometimes love isn’t enough 

and to be loved back is a good start to more.