PROMISED
I promised that I wouldn’t look back again That I wouldn’t sit back in this place. Lest I turn into a pillar of salt. But promises are easy to make. I am sorry but I can’t keep those promises today. I am happy, but I am anxious. I am glad, but I am conscious. I am not sure how best to feel. I can’t get back that version of myself. Heavens knows I’ve tried I’ve retraced my steps. What you took was my inner child And I lied when I said I’d figure it out. I’ve sat with myself. The guilt of what I allowed gives me fear. I think I need time to grief Maybe lock myself up in some cell. What you took from me, was life in itself. And I thought it had no effect. But look, I am very much stuck here. And I am scared as hell. People write all the time, But it’s unfair what you make me write about. You show up in everything that I am. While I am trying so hard to live my life. It’s frightening. You hurt me badly. I thought I recovered But this morning b...
