I HOPE THAY YOU FIND YOURSELF
I consider this word the heaviest thing someone could say to me, if said from a sincere heart. I applaud you for sitting and watching so much that you know I was missing, I commend you for listening so deeply that you can tell I am lost. More deeply, I appreciate your desire that you know there’s a need to get me back. You didn’t let me explain in vain that I have detoured from my original design, it’s hurtful to share my heartbreak then have to explain why it broke my heart. How do you explain loss and disappointment in this type of heavy grief and not further sink? Thank you for not telling me life happens because I’ve lost way too much to agree with that reality and I think I am not deserving of the hurt I got in exchange of just existing: so really I am hurting. I hope you get yourself back! I hope you do! It’s heavy for me because I long to have my wonder again, to be fascinated by winds and birds, to not wait on when I would be broken or analyze acti...
