WHEN I SAID IT IS ALL GOOD

When I said it was all good,

It didn’t mean life with you was perfect, 

It meant that I was ready 

to put down my walls,

It meant that I was up to 

opening up even after my hurts.

It meant that I was ready 

to try again with you,

To stake all my cards and to risk it all. 

It meant that I could 

share my dreams with you.

I could see how it goes - in a good way.

It meant I was learning to be honest 

about my emotions per time and season.

It meant that I didn’t know how, 

but I’d still do it. 

That my world has crumbled 

before but I’d still build this.

That a part of me feels unsure, 

Because of past hurts,

But I die everyday to self.

I hate to put this out there.

But it took me 9,000 bold steps. 

To count beyond my hurts and fears. 

Beyond the things I’ve always feared. 

To come near and say home is here. 

Ever since I was a child, 

I had wanted to do love with no fear,

I had that chance when I had first seen you.

I swore to give it my best. 

So when I say “it’s all good”

It’s not because it’s perfect,

It’s just because I want you

Beyond the extend of regular.

Deeply into all that ever matters. 

With my brokenness in repair. 

With all I am and look to be.

In certainty and stability by your words. 

Beyond the casual definition of love.

Into the newness of all.

So when I look at you and say “this is it”.

I say it in understanding of what I know it is.