The Goodbye That Never Was

 

This was supposed to take it away.

Moving away from you, 

from the memories we held on to.

This was supposed to make you fade, 

it was supposed to keep me sane. 

But it doesn’t.

All I do is see your face in places

that he now stays.

It’s pathetic of me. 

How I thought I was over the things we had.

I thought moving away would 

mean that I left you behind. 

I thought I found another love 

of my life, in actual sense, 

all he does is remind me of you.

He smiles just like you.

Of course I adore him

But I think I am still in love with you.

I thought I could play you away.

I could have sworn it was easy to start again.

I am not sure why I see you in

his face and I wish we didn’t fade. 

It is sort of crazy how it’s better

we didn’t remain but how 

can your thoughts still remain?

Now that I think of it, I wish you 

the best but the best is here 

not with someone else.

I just can’t let go!

It’s not as easy as I planned.

I hate that often times all

I see in you is him and that’s not fine. 

I thought we had nice goodbye.

All that did was made it look 

like we were over when we had

just gotten started - even from a distance.

Side note: This, you know is for you. If you’ve ever tried to move on from someone by seeing another person but end up cheating with the person you left behind. And sometimes, I have to admit, cheating isn’t always physical. It’s you checking their images, wishing and desiring this new life was with them, holding regrets and wishing they were close. I am sorry, but you should move on. This isn’t that type of Que Sera that Seras. I hope you understand?! Leave me a comment.