Dear you again

 

Dear You, 

 Hi,  I could never try to leave you, but I keep denying. 

I have been hiding because this love thing could be so demanding.

Not only, but a part of  me has been hurting.

 And my past sometimes haunts me, so I keep running.  

I am writing you to let you know that I’ve been taking time to do the things we’d do together if I wasn’t busy running from you and lying to myself about how I feel about you.

And I’ve been living the life  that I would have loved if I was with you. 

Doing the things I would have done if i was still spending time loving you. 

Makes me feel like I am better alone, but I  know my hurt sometimes speaks.

It’s the reason I’ve spent so many years by myself.  

To be honest, I don’t know what tomorrow holds.

But I hope I will find the courage to return home and try this again with you.