SHADOWS

 When I fell in love with you 

and you had to leave.

I spent most nights praying that

It would be just a dream. 

Other nights, I was grieving.

Clinging tightly to my pillow. 

It was sorrow in form of water.

My sorrow had no waiver.

But I believed that it would

One day get better. 

I think that I lied to myself.

It’s been months and days

Since your hands last touched

My face. 

I am as miserable as a rusted chain.

Stammering, I have no words to say.

Over the years, I thought when love 

Hurts, all you need do is move on. 

But with you, I want clarity. 

It’s like I am tired of moving on. 

Like they are words you have to say

that are meant for us, just us. 

Words like - Sorry, i didn’t love you 

Enough. I apologize for giving us up. 

I wanted to ask that if you could 

Choose again, would you pick me. 

But I realize, I wasn’t a choice.

We were just there, running in circles.

There was no us. Never us.

It was just shadow of emotions.

It shadowed my thoughts. 

And for all the months I waited 

For you to get back. 

You had no veil like I did.  

So reality took the shadow my 

Heart gave to you. 

But, I was living and lying to myself. 

If time could talk, it would call me 

OBSESSED.

That’ was all I was, you didn’t even 

Know there was a us. 

Oluwafunke Ajoba

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3/2022