Gone

 As I put my feet into the river, 

I understood I was done staying 

By the fence. 

If or not I had regrets, I couldn’t say.

But several voices played in my head.

Maybe a little more time, 

Maybe never. 

And then, I understood it was time for it

To be over. It was time to be gone.

For the 7th time, I loosened the emotions

That I had, hoping with all my strength 

That this time would be the last. 

How do you love a friend? Agape

How do you love a lover? I can’t say.

I could tell my heart felt deep pains.

But my head said it was safe,

So I realize it was time to die -

Compromise, love and sacrifice.

It was time to move on and it was 

Hard for me to understand why.

But I knew to never stay in a place 

Where you are received or rejected 

For fear- but love doesn’t care.

And till now, I didn’t understand why 

Home wasn’t there. 

But it’s alright, I’d love without fear. 

I don’t know when next, but I am 

Certain. 

When I do, it won’t be you. 

You won’t be here. 

Because I forgot how to love you 

This night till forever.