Hey

 I am really hoping that this is different,

That you are different.

I am hoping that I don’t wake up to you changed. 

I am hoping that the feelings don’t fade.

I am hoping my heart doesn’t go grey. 

I hope I don’t forget your name.

Maybe it won’t be you or me.

It might just be both of us in a room talking about how we can’t be. 

Maybe it’s a waste of feeling.

I’d understand, I really would. 

That’s why I am saying let’s try again 

Let’s think about it again. 

I don’t want to wake up wishing the morning never came. 

I don’t hope you’d like to look forward to drinking in order to forget my name. 

So, I am just here. 

Wishing that time come faster.

I don’t want your lips. I don’t even want your heart. 

I just want to try to start and stay in your forever. 

No baggage; I don’t want to bring any, they are too heavy. 

They say to try, I am trying. 

They usually would say a woman knows what’s she wants. 

I think I do, but I have always know and I never got my desires. 

Don’t joke and don’t mess with me. 

There isn’t enough space for my heart to bleed. 

This is the love I have left; I can’t hold things in, I’d give you everything. 

I feel I have healed. 

I am tired of explaining 

I hope that you understand 

That I am human

Treat me like that

My heart is already falling apart 

And I feel I have healed 

But the scars, these scars. 

They are my heart. 

Just let me know. 

Just let me know if by next tomorrow