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I used to be fascinated by the magic your sight created. I used to be amazed at the wonders your voice could work. The synchronization of your laughter with my heart. I loved how we were so transparent. 

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Hence, I am looking to love you till forever. Or not. 

 Before you go, I’d like for you to love me once more. 

For the last time, I want you to smile without wondering if we would last. 

I want to carefully retain your fragrance.

 I would strategically keep the thoughts of you. 

One last time; I don’t want your lips in mine.

 I just would love to go back to the first day that I said *i love you * , when you didn’t laugh and it felt as though a star fell before you. 

I want you, just like I had you when you didn’t know that love could have rules.

 When your heart didn’t beat fast. 

I want the day before you realized that my heart had scars and might not hold us up.

 I want when you weren’t scared.  

When it made perfect sense in your head.

 I want lesser questions; because when you ask, it begins to look like we might never last. 

I want when I could talk in the dialect of forever, without thinking of a never. I want to love you without fear.

 Even if it’s just for today, just today. 

I want to find my way into your arms, my hope is just a one and the half. 

Can I love you once more, maybe for the last time? I don’t know what forever is, but the thought of it makes my breath cease. 

Can I just love you for tonight? 

Then I can watch my heart wither.....