I want you till 112

9:04pm

I want you .

Usually, I am cultured.

Strong, determined, more than enough, but not tonight.

I want you.

I am lying in bed with my black robes on.

It’s a weird color to pick, but that’s what I love.

It sucks in the grieves of my struggles.

It hides the grudges of my inabilities.

It doesn’t tell time.

Black robes feels alright.

But there is something better

At least for a moment like this.

Your arms around my upper waist.

Pardoning my last mistake.

No, it’s not what you think.

I am not trying practice indecency.

I just want you.

I want to cuddle with you.

I want to tell you how my day went while your palms runs through my flesh. 

I want you to leave a kiss on my forehead.

I want you to hold me tight.

I want you.

I don’t want to say a word.

I am not going to be absurd. 

I don’t want to say you should understand my silence.

You don’t read minds, and I appreciate that you don’t.

Baby, I want you.

Soaking your body into mine.

Perhaps you could run your hands through my hair. 

Just tell me you would be there. 

I want to call you mine.

I would hold you tightly in return. 

Watching some part of my tears falls into the inner part of your shoulder.

I would shiver in grieve for the deals I didn’t strike today.

I would murmur in bitterness, the failure of a woman who always does well. 

I want you.

I want you to know me so well.

That in my weakness, you stand as strength.

To be mine means a lot. 

And to you, I would be more than enough. 

After we are done grieving.

I’d like to celebrate your success as a man. 

I want to know you so well.

That even my failure doesn’t stop your progress.

That when you don’t consent, I’d maintain respect.

That when you don’t like it enough, you’d still believe and cheer me on.

I want you

For better, for worse.

In my black robes and broken cords.

In the drips of the wine glass cups.

Intoxicated only by true love and full support.

Respect and golden touch.

A kiss on the lips.

Smile on face.

To lay on the bed.

To start again.

This is my vow.

Wanting only you. 

Until nothing can come in between us.

Not even death would do us part.

I want you.

In my 95 to 104.

In your 112 to 120.

I want you till forever.