I am gone - undone 2

I miss you because I am growing

And moments like this, I wish I could hear your whispers.

When you told me I would get it right, I had no doubts, but I didn’t know it would be so hard.

But I am trying to be what you saw.

More importantly, to have the results.

I am scared. I am also in shock.

You should have warned me a bit more.

I miss your massages

I miss your chastising 

I miss the cute little way, the cute way that you call my name.

My heart can’t beat

I can’t take a deep breath.

I can’t close my eyes.

And I am scared.

I wish you were here.

It’d be easier.

I am gone and undone.

I told the world that I am fine.

I never would be.

I am grieving.

I am losing me.

I just want your images.

The goofy dark glasses.

The trust you have in me.

The silly stories.

Weird ballet classes.

You used to take me as me.

You remind me of so much.

As much as I wish I didn’t have to,

Thoughts of you, brings me back.

I am hoping tonight, I would sleep fine.

That I would no longer fear my past or

Worry about my future.

That I won’t bother about the other life.

Was it you or was it me, which one of us said all that matters is getting it right ?

I just want to steal glances at your face.

Perhaps you can tell my fate.

I want to rest on your chest and grieve my heavy pains.

You are strong, you would always say.

I think that just changed.