This is not the love I know.

Baby, I am hoping we don't get there. To the stage where silence becomes our words. 

 Honestly, I have been scared, I have been scared because you don't look at me the way you used to. I am starting to feel alone around you. 

I lied that night that I told you I have been by myself. 

I have been seeing my ex, I promise nothing has been going on. 

I am still keeping myself. 

But when I look at the ring on my finger, it was to be a sign that we were together. But our hearts are apart, babe. 

You don't listen to any word that I say.

 I tried to wake you up that morning. 

Singing your best song to your face.

 I hate how you screamed, stop it Grace, it's Saturday. 

Honey, I hate it, that we don't talk anymore. 

You no longer call me by my pet names. 

Doesn’t it get to you, when I cannot let you wrap me in your arms? I have been scared, I failed, baby. I failed in that project. 

But I cannot tell you because of the pains of being rejected.

 Your words means a lot, when you tear me down, they become thorns.

 Honey, I thought I knew you. What you like, whom you love, I thought that I was the one.

 I want to try, a little bit harder. I want you to smile, I want your palms settling in  mine. 

But you make it hard, the way that you scream during our fights.

 How you lock the door and zoom off, only to return drunk, justifying it with your hurts. 

This isn't what I want. 

When I told mother, she said as long as you haven't lifted your arms and given me scars, as long as you haven't held another woman or fathered her child. 

Between you and I, my joy stopped to come in the morning, honey when I look at your face. 

I see all the times that you said, Grace, I am not sure we would be going out today.

 There was a time, that you made me smile. 

Now, I don't understand. 

Don't tell me to give you time, time is not a doctor, it wouldn't heal the scars. 

Baby, I'm scarred.

 I have forgotten our vows.

 Dear Honey boo, where art thou.