Obsession 1

I am obsessed with your smile.
Your unsaid words and torturing frown.

I am obsessed with your silence,
Your whimpers and inner darkness.

I am obsessed with your spirit,
Your brutal abuse that shatters me.

I am obsessed with your character
Your insincerity and draining demands.

You are not a man like my father,
Yet I am stuck on your part.

I am obsessed, just as your are.
Too obsessed to walk away from toxicity.
Too obsessed to heal.
Too obsessed that I pretend like this is a good feeling.
I am obsessed with the beast in you.

The way you do not care for me, it makes me think you are a man.
Because true love to me feels like a lie.

I am obsessed with your inability to decide,
To decide if you want me around.

I am bleeding on those who try to draw me out,
Ghosting on those who say I can be better.
I am obsessed.

I am obsessed with the way you call my name.
Flipping my hair through the space.
I am obsessed with how you say I am special.
I have forgotten this is a game.
I am obsessed with your character,
I have forgotten my substance.

I am obsessed because I think love can transform a man.
I am obsessed because I think you would one day come around.
I am obsessed because I see a better you, giving up isn’t what I can do.
I am obsessed because I love you.
I think that’s what love should do.