she don't know love.

Fine, I don't care. I don't, I yelled extremely as I watched him shut the doors, I couldn't say if he would be back.

******* Some weeks before now***

But you need to learn these things, because you keep messing up with it, he had said to me in a tone as calm as him.

I don't like the word; mess up, i said ignoring the essence of the conversation.

All I am saying is learn to say those words and be more patient and attentive, he said with a little sigh.

I will make efforts, I said as I made attempt to stand.

I wasn't finished, he whispered.

Babe, please, I don't want trouble, I just want to get some cereal, I responded as I watched him roll his eyes and wear a frown, he muttered words I couldn't hear, but I wasn't concerned about it; I was starving

****Later that night***

I watched as he hissed countless times, I walked pass him to pick up my phone.

I told you I wasn't comfortable with it, why wouldn't you listen? He questioned.

Mine, this is not a big deal, I just don't know what you want, he is my friend, I yelled as I placed extra emphasis on friend.

And I don't want him, he snapped.

Okay, I replied coldly.

You need to start listening, I am over you not listening, I am over these, he said.

Stop raising your voice at me, I don't like it, I said slowly.

You know what? You were right. I shouldn't say anything about this anymore, he turned to walk away.

Mine, Temi, I didn't mean it that way..... It's just....ju.. sst... I stammered

Don't worry, please, he continued to depart.

You aren't walking away from me, I declared.

He turned aggressively and held me by my shoulders; i make decisions for us ola, and I make the best decisions for you. I don't know and I don't care who that dude is to you, I am not comfortable with this relationship you both have. Why do we have to argue about this everyday?

And why do I have to repeat myself, Why Ola, Why!!

I didn't ask you to make decisions for me, I didn't, and I don't care what you say or think, I don't, I yelled.

You see, right there, all you had to do was say I am sorry and I will be better, but your arrogance keeps getting in the way, this conversation is over, he declared as he walked away while I screamed over my voice as I watched.

I know I barely say sorry, my mouth gets to heavy when I try. I know men have their respect attached to their ego, but I don't like the fact that it hovers. Sometimes, I don't like that he is right. Other days, I think I am better alone; i didn't like the idea of compromise, I was used to dominating until now, until him. I don't understand the concept of love, submission and sacrifice. I don't know how to keep a man, I didn't know how to try.

This love, this life, it is different from what I have always lived.

***Tonight****

Okay, stop yelling, okay? He said.

What do you mean yelling, I questioned with my voice over the 100th pitch. You just don't go around doing silly and stupid stuffs and justify it in this manner, I cried out.

Leaving the house while you nag was stupid? So, I should have stayed and watched you exhibit..    I am done here, baby. I don't want to do this. Not today, he said.

Well, I want to, because I am tired of you complaining about me, I responded 

Ola, don't get on my nerves, please , he said as he turned.

Get back here temi, get back here, I am talking, I said as I zoomed to block the passage. 

Get out of my way, what is wrong with you? Stop draining me, what is your problem? Must you be stupid? Do you have to yell? Do you have to be insensitive? Do you have to be stupid. I tried babe, I tried to deal with you, but you have to learn before you move. I understand this isn't you; submission isn't you, changing isn't you but you have to be different for us. For this love babe, I can't deal with this anymore, i don't have peace. I can't be troubled in love, he concluded.

Temidayo, I didn't intend to, I said slowly.

Change Ola, Change. I can't keep up with your silly attitudes and dramatic rants, it drives me insane and if you know better, like you say, you should have some more sense....

I intruded before he could finish, I am not daft. 

I didn't say you...... I cut in again.

I have had enough dayo, get out, leave my house, get out of my apartment, now, I said as I pointed to the exit.

You are crazy, and I am done with you, he said as he walked out. 

Fine, I don't care. I don't, I yelled extremely as I watched him shut the doors, I couldn't say if he would be back.

And I knew it was time to spend the night crying. I don't know what love was about. Compromise is not my friend. Listening is my opponent. This love, i don't know about, this love I will forever fight.