Half Loved

Dear Romeo,

     The taste of your lips remains luscious. 

   Your cuddles still makes me safe.

   Every of the words you have said to me is on replay, and i hate to say this, but I cannot stay. 

 Yes, I cannot stop.

   I cannot stop to think of how you hold           my hands when we walk.

  I cannot stop seeing you smile, watching        you say those words about love, building a future for us.

       I cannot stop, but I have to. 

      You are a good man, i cannot hurt you.

I have searched for you everywhere, but I cannot look at you to say I don't want to be here, no, no, I don't love somebody else. 

  I just don't love you enough to wait 

Yes, I lied when I said I cannot live without you. 

Yes,  I lied when I said I would die without you.

I love you, but not enough to spend the rest of my life with you.

All my life, I have nodded and stayed cool.

But when I looked at you, I exchanged myself for a better me.

I realized you were the mirror that reflects me, but honey boo, I do not reflect you.

I cannot let you complete me while I don't complete you.

My heart beats fast when I try to take a risk for you.

I have realized love is not a rush.

And there wouldn't be a better us.

No, no, Romeo, do not tell me to shush.

All these years, you have restricted my words, you left me in denial of who I was.

I know you meant no harm, but I could have been allowed to face my flaws.

Perhaps if you had seen me at my worse, there would have forever been a us.

Dear Romeo, 

 I am not enough to be loved. Not by you, not at this season. My heart is at peace that I have set you free.

Here is your ring.

There is no more us.

I need to find me.

Because The Holy Bible says two will come together to become one, not halves would be whole.

 

When I find myself, I shall return home.

You deserve a woman who can make you grow.

In whose arms you can find home.

Dear Romeo, 

 I am sorry.

Half of me would make you lost and alone.