ALLOW 1

Allow me ask you to love me. 

Allow me say you are my mystery.

My missing piece, allow me, allow me stick with you.

As i laid i remebered her words, i cried more despite being a man. 

How could she? i asked myself.

 I knew somewhere i stopped to push, but i resumed.

 I don't know who to blame it on. I soon fell asleep. 

Woken by her voice, i stood.

 Charles, i ehnn, i wanna say i am sorry, i know that i was wrong, i know that I.....

Just shut up, keep your peace alice and leave, i cut her short, pointing to the door. 

LAST NIGHT, SHE SAID

Every single piece of you i once adored.

Every bit of you i still adore, every piece of you i cherish, everything about you is what i love.

 Charles, you did me wrong yet blame me. You didn't love me any bit at a point, you watched me pushed and didn't adjust.

 You whispered love rather shouting it to the world. I watched you ignore my calls, leave my messages unread. I was unloved. I battled with my esteem, i cried so much, yet didn't fix my shattered piece, you called me dumb, i yet grew in love. 

I looked at you, the days i spoke and you nodded my words, you gave me vain hope, you told me to hold on. I believed your promises of change, feels like the government of nigeria; promising and failing again. 

I asked that you allow me do the loving, caring, everything because i saw in you; light. 

In the process i put myself in darkness. 

I covered every bit of myself, i began to melt like wax.

 When you began to love me it was too late, i gave up already, i took more than a break.

 Loving you didnt seem like love, it felt like a curse from my anscestors.

 I was wrong to have moved, you defined me and i held you.

 I had the best in your pains, i didn't mind the shame. 

I walked too much, i fell and crawled. I allowed so much, i broke off. 

It is alright to ask me to leave, but i need to ask if you would return the woman you met?

I am defined as strong because i allowed a lot. Don't you get Charles.

You took my peace; the source that moulds me. 

I began to seek for what you held, i walked the storm and saw hell.

You don't understand something, i lost everything. 

I think i was wrong to have a life, i lost hope even though you had it in your hand. I called my thirsty for you; love. I didn't care anymore, i just wanted a source.

 I saw light in your shallow spot, i defined you as joy. You had my all, my beauty with sauce. I deserve to leave, but can i have back myself?