IN A WHISPER 1

I ran up the stairs with tears in my eyes, i concealed as i cried.

 In a whisper, i said i would die. 

In a whisper, i knew i spoke, laughed while i hurt. 

In a whisper, i heard voices in my head.

 In a whisper, i took my sleep pill and took in four pills, i knew i wouldn't wake in the morning, i didn't want to.

 In a whisper, i plugged my earphones to my head, listened to the song titled *WHISPER* . 

In a whisper, thoughts ran through my mind. 

Every single day i died to myself, all the times i said i would get there, moments when i was the only one that could hear.

 In a whisper, i felt dizzy and weak, no strenght in me.

 In a whisper.......

In a whisper, i remebered my first birthday; the countless cake, i recalled the days friends stayed, i went through my mind i saw the most crazy days.

 In a whisper, i said no pains, i laughed while i felt pains; effect of the pills.

 In a whisper, i heard you are a shame; I ran through the days of pains, like when i was raped, when i watch them slain my loved ones, when i couldn't erase the mistake i made.

 When my heart was broken, when i dropped out of school. 

When i saw my dream shattered because they called young and naive. 

In a whisper, i took five more pills and laid to rest, but couldn't. 

I began to recall things i once felt, love, hatred, shame, celebration, pains. 

My body failed........