SOMEHOW LOVING YOU

 

I hate that I laugh when I think of you.

I hate that I nurture the hope of a life with you.

I hate it that my mind loves you.

That it is building for you, with you.

I hate the hope that my heart gives me.

I hate the love it sells to me.

Somehow, I am loving you.

Without my control, I am wanting you.

I cannot handle the thoughts of you.

I am still grieving,

waiting for time to take the things that broke me

Maybe when I am done, maybe I will be back.

Maybe I will allow my heart,

Maybe I will.