SO MAD AT YOU FOR LEAVING

 

I have been so mad at you,

That I couldn’t write you back.

I’ve been so upset with you, 

That I held myself back

from reaching you.

I hate that I’ve been 

struggling to forget the

taste of your lips.

I regret that i can still 

remember how your touch felt.

I hate that you didn’t have 

the decency to do right by me.

I hate how you let us go.

I hate that you didn’t fight.

That you called me yours

but didn’t end up as mine.

I hate myself for our jokes, 

because somehow I remember 

them and I can’t let go.

I hate that you didn’t 

fight for what we had.

That you just woke up 

and shut your heart.

I hate that you made 

me grow so fast.

Building guards and 

shielding my mind.

I hate that you are 

not there as you promised me.

I hate that you left 

me so much to revisit. 

I used to say never stay

if you don’t want to.

But it was so easy to say

it than to live it.

Heck, I lived for you.

Now I am picking myself apart.

Shutting my heart.

Scared of ever starting out.

You are making me Alpha.

I am crushed beyond belief.

I trusted that we had a thing.

How could you?

You couldn’t even say 

it to my face that you

had to leave? 

You just vanished into

thin air and stayed away from me.

Now I have thousand of questions,

I also couldn’t have sworn

it doesn’t take so long to move on.

But look at me.

I have written these 

story in different version.

Shouting to God to help me heal.

Now I almost can never move on.

I can’t even say a word.

I am left in awe of your actions.

I thought I was little Miss Strong.

That I could erase the hurts and evolve.

Look at me.

Pathetic!!!

Buried in regrets.

I pray that this cup passes.

The content doesn’t interest me.

I left the courage to ask

why you did what you did.

I can’t even write you.

That’s what you’ve made of me.

Of course I am mad at you.

Even madder at myself for 

ever coming across you.

You don’t feel like fate,

I think you were never 

meant to happen.