TOO HEAVY A BURDEN

 

Hold me tight 

I am losing myself

I’ve been crying day and night 

I can’t tell if there was an offense

I can’t seem to get life right

I feel so upset

I hate myself for everytime I give too much of myself

God, make this burden light

My heart isn’t here or there

It’s broken

And my eyes holds way too much tears.

I might be blind if I don’t take care.

And I can’t place it.

And I cannot fix it.

So I am lying on my bed

Feels like I am obsessed with rest.

But I don’t just want to wake up

Or fix anything in this world.

If you can, just hold me.

Hold me for as long.

Lift this burden it’s heavy 

I told you not to break me way too much.

My back is breaking 

My injuries are starting to hurt 

I thought these days were over? 

My sorrow seems way too long.

I have nothing left to give 

I’ve had enough of life and nothing more to receive.

If I had the chance, I’d declare struggles as a sin.

Take this cup.

Even my Gethsemane is tired of having me.

My tears waters that garden.

I need more elders with me.

If this cup wouldn’t pass and your will would be done, 

give me the heart so I don’t make myself undone.