BETRAYED TRUST

 

I gave you me,

You acted like you gave me you.

We made memories,

I let you see all I was made of.

And I was scared as heck, 

To build a future,

But I went ahead because 

you said to trust you 

as you gave me a kiss 

on my forehead.

Now you are missing.

And I am missing a part of me.

I want to forgive, 

But how could I forgive myself 

for losing all of me to you.

I thought we were good

I was vulnerable and 

plain with you.

I held no plans from you.

How on earth am I 

supposed to move from you? 

Every now and then,

You ring a bell in my head

I remember then, the first time

you laid your head on my chest.

Everyday I write of you

I break my pen 

I run out of ink

Now, I’ve ran out of tears.

How could you spend 

those time being there, 

when it was time to leave 

you stood and acted 

like we didn’t have a thing there. 

The jokes, the time spent, 

Now I have to build again, 

I hate myself here.

If I said I was holding 

anything against you, 

it would be a lie

But I find it hard to 

forgive myself 

For all the memories we had.

We had an entire life.

Where you were mine 

and I was yours.

Nothing mattered but our love.

You took that away from us. 

And I continue to ask 

What part of our fall was my fault? 

Over and over again, I wish an explanation was made. 

But when I think enough, I just think 

my fault was the very first day 

we started to talk about us.