FORGIVE ME

 

I'd like that you please forgive me.

I didn't mean to.

I honestly didn't think staying up until past 2 and laughing about how our day has been would get us like this.

I think that I led you on, I am sorry.

I am sorry that I made my arms home.

I am sorry that I gave you a chance to experience my heart.

I am sorry that I wasn't careful, I regret deeply not guarding my heart.

What was I thinking?

That sending you images of my outfit wasn't me crossing the line.

Actions like these stirs up emotions, I apologize for breaking boundaries.

Staying up on the phone with you like that, telling you all of my plans..

It was wrong of me, it was bad for us.

I didn't mean to stir up anything, to start a thing we couldn't keep.

I was so aware, I was so conscious, I made mistakes I am not proud of.

Forgive me.

I shouldn't have done that to myself.

I shouldn't have done that to you.

I shouldn't have done that with you.

I cannot believe that I made jokes with you, told you my dreams; knowing I don't have the liberty to belong with you.

Making jokes like that, baring my heart; that was me breaking our heart.

I write you to ask that you forgive me.

That you please put behind the memories that we both lived.

While it was beautiful; it ripped me.

I reflect over and over again how I could have been better behaved.

Tamed whatever flames, but no, I broke myself again.

Oh how I hate doing that to myself.

Now I sit and randomly shake my head, lost in what should have been and struggling to hide my grieve.

I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me?

I also pray that God restores time and original intent of what we were meant to be.

I hope I allow myself leave this behind me.