Love is way too hard with you

 

It was easy to love until you came. 

then I had to struggle to be heard.

The love you promised wasn’t what you gave. 

It was hard to call you, 

you kept giving me reasons to wail. 

Months have passed, I am hoping you’d change

Hoping you’d come into realization of this toxic exchange. 

It’s hard to come home to you, 

you are either yelling or being out of reach. 

It makes me wonder the type of trash this is. 

I never imagined it’d be this way 

And if I didn’t know love, I’d say it’s okay.  

But this was never my expectation. 

I never thought your expression of love would be tug of war. 

It isn’t exactly fun to question my emotions because how you throw them off. 

And I thought it was my fault, but I just 

realized “You just don’t know love”

Or “I am not one to be love by you”

Because the effort you take in ripping apart my youth makes it obvious you don’t like me being a part of you. 

Sometimes, I struggle to justify your actions, because it’s hard to fall out of you.  

But I just realized I am losing a part of me for you and it’s only a matter of time before I start to love like you.

And I don’t desire such a bitter manner of output, hence I’d like say bye to you.