Dead and death

   

You know that I am torn and undone. 

  You know I will never be the same. 

I want to go to the land of no return. 

Let me take down your number. 

   When I travel to the dead men overseas.

I want to call you still. 

  I just want to hear your voice, I do not intend to reincarnate. 

 I will ask you if momma is doing okay.

I’d tell you to let her know that I am sorry.

 Tell the family I didn’t intend to, I just couldn’t bear it. 

Let’s talk about you. How have you been fairing? I see you’ve been dropping flowers for me. I like the dark roses. Reminds me of your jokes. Why did you leave a note? I couldn’t go through it. I know you’d be looking to ask why I left so early. 

  I am so sorry, I just couldn’t stay.

But I love you for every memories, even the one from earlier today.

  I liked how you took every step with me. 

How you said “let me watch you heal”

I liked how we said Pammy in the East.

Are you happy? You promise you’d be. 

For every-time I called you baby, I meant it with all of me. 

 I wouldn’t find a man like you. And that’s why I am calling. I know you gave all you could, but isn’t life just funny?

  Forgive me for what I did. I am deeply sorry. But if I could change a thing, I’d have stayed with you. 

If not for anything, but to watch and let you stay with me. 

Odigba, Oremi atata. 

Ololufe is a strong word, I’d let you have all of that. 

Perhaps you shouldn’t leave flowers anymore, they remind me of how I got you hurt. 

Just like I had done when I had life in me. 

Pushing you away because to me, to be loved was not reality. 

And to be loved so selflessly by a man like you was too much of a blessing and a miracle that I had to cancel. 

  But I really did love you. And I love you still.  Thank you for visiting.

 Au revoir, dear darling..... say me hello to our little baby.

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Category: DARK

Written by Olu’Ajoba

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52/2021.