And we shall...

 And we shall

Yes, the thoughts of several things

Like me waking up to your kiss. 

Breakfast in bed with total peace 

My lips on yours and my back down till I can barely breathe. 

No longer a sin because we had vows and shared rings.

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Remember when we used to spend forever talking to one another? 

And I’d make you smile and you’d make laugh? 

I would tell you facts and you would tell no lies? 

When the world revolved around what we felt; strong enough to never melt. Or so I thought. 

Then something happened and my heart left its place. 

When I look at you, it doesn’t feel the same way. I wouldn’t find the right words to say. 

I think you hurt me, but I look not to do the same. 

Or maybe you lied about all we used to feel and that makes me feel ashamed. 

I was so sure that I knew your perfect shade. 

Then I am standing miles away with no memories of anything. 

And it seems like a place that I have always been. 

And my heart doesn’t know if to bleed. 

I don’t know how to feel. 

I can’t cry, I can’t scream, I can’t remember your name out of will. 

I have been here before, I might never leave. 

When it’s dark and having emotions did become disenchanted. 

We would say farewell to many things, but this, this hurts a lot. 

And I cover it up, because I vowed to never say a word, I can’t explain the pains that it cost me; almost went insane. 

The voice of God brought me. 

Day after day, I am wondering why do I make same mistake when it comes to loving? 

I can’t find words to express this any longer. 

That my soul has had its vulnerability countered. 

And now there are walls around my heart, saying farewell to the past, but not embracing what the future has.

It was supposed to be fine, but I am guessing that this is alright. 

The pages are blank and I don’t ever want to write. 

Every time I touch the pen, it makes me cry. 

I was finding my way, no, I think I was blind. 

I am sorry I held your hands. 

I would grieve for a long time. 

It was my mistake that I stared at you.

That I tried to not hide. 

I haven’t found the best words..... 

I hope I do.....