For better or worse?

I don't know if it is scary that I didn't wake up in your arms.
I have had dreams and thought you'd be around.
Days like this, I want to be wrapped around your arms, protected, cared for, loved without flaws.
My head running through thoughts; you promised to be there forever.
To love and to protect, to care and to watch over, for better and for worse.
We had two different worlds. You thought worse was infidelity, I knew worse were days that we felt tired of what the world was throwing at us.
I tried, baby, to stay with your worse, I couldn't just watch you do it anymore, staining the vows with someone else
For a while, I stayed, I thought you'd find your way home, but the day your raised your hands, I realized that home wasn't safe with you.
  I would keep my vows, for better for worse, but not till death from you do us part.
I am sorry, I couldn't watch the man that I love become a beast in the home we ought to grow, with children we never had, but longed for.

It breaks my heart, that your worse is a low life stage and my worse is what the world doesn't know again.
You shall be with your husband no matter the situation, your mother said, but the day that I served you the papers after I had disappeared I realized, you were nothing but your father's child, my unborn would never be like that.

For better for worse; this worse is not my worse.